For forty odd years, maybe 50, I have had nowhere to address this. I still don’t, maybe the man is dead. I write in the faint hope that it may somehow reach him and that some of my shame will be alleviated.
I was on the Rim in those years, the Rim being where everybody’s stories for the paper were read, corrected, sent back for revision, etc.. and when we were through we eventually wrote a headline for the story and sent it to composing room to be translated into sticks of melted lead and, with luck, printed in the newspaper.
He to whom I apologize was a copy boy – the lowest form of life known on newspapers at that time. Copy boys were less than nothing and so were the copy girls who eventually joined them. I recognize now, at long last, that they were people not only my equals but also me, myself, I. They worshipped newspapering and wanted nothing more than to become one of the newspaper writers themselves. Why did we treat them so rudely? I will tell you; I do not know. It was the way things were.
This copy boy, whose name I cannot remember and may never have known, chose me for some reason as his hero figure. He wanted to be like me. Skip ahead a few years now…..He entlisted in the army and served in Korea. Not long after I got myself elected a Member of Parliament and went to Ottawa.
One day, sitting with friends in the Vancouver Sun cafeteria and talking politics, who should turn up at my side but that Copy Boy, older now of course and looking it after Korea. He spoke quietly and politely. He recognized that I was among my friends but he and his girl friend, a few booths over, would wait until our group broke up and would I then come over and-say a few words to them? I said yes, of course, and the closest I can come to excusing my behavior was that I meant to. I had every intention of stopping on my way out of the cafeteria and coming over to meet his girl friend.
When it was time to leave, every trace of memory had been erased. I walked out ignoring them. It was a disgusting display of bad manners that didn’t come back my mind until half an hour later. I didn’t know his address, far less his name to send an apology and he had long since left the newspaper.This careless, stupid, contemptuous behavior by me is still hard for me to live with today.
If by any miracle this message should ever reach him MY SINCERE APOLOGIES,SIR.
I probably hurt your feelings then. My feelings have hurt ever since.
Paul